Introduction

Well it has been a long time coming; I am not even talking about the constant consideration to blog only emerging sporadically since I was about 17 years old, to use the ultimate grandpa quote:  "back in my day," the only people that blogged did it everyday and if plenty of people they did not even know didn't read and enjoy their blog they didn't keep doing it (unless they were trying to get people to hate their blog).  I am, however, referring to the fact that it has been four months since I convinced myself that it was something I should do.

I remember exactly where I was, perhaps I should feel a little bad about this.

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Oh sorry I just got lost in thought.  Like I was saying I feel a little bit bad about this, but I sat in church.  I wish that I could say that the words that were spoken touched my heart, changed my life, and will never be forgotten; but the reality is I could not pay a lick of attention. I had intended to listen, after all I do not really go to church that much; I ought to make the most of it.  The spirit may, for most people, still the mind, open the heart and ears, but I seem to be wired completely backwards.  To be fair though, the same thing happens in course lectures if I do not focus on regulating my thought.  I digress.  My point was I decided this is what I should do and right there I compiled a mental representation of my initial post.

It was a great post and I wish you could have read it.  The title might make a little more sense if you did.  Nevertheless, to explain the title, "The things I think, but do not say."  First of all it is a derivative of a movie quote.  Jerry Maguire's mission statement was titled, "the things we think and do not say: thoughts of a sports attorney"

I like movies and the quotes tend to stick with me.  This sentiment, however, I appreciate even more than any typical movie quote though, this quote holds special meaning for me.  I am a deep thinking and extremely introverted individual.  Most of my thought never crosses the plane of consciousness to embrace its own existence, or reality.

So, why am I finally starting now?  Well, to be completely honest, I need to get into the habit of writing.  I think about it so much that it is difficult to just sit down and do it.  Therefore, I feel as if I am stuck in a perpetual state of brainstorming.  Additionally, the last few days I have written these memos on my phone, since they are too long for facebook, why not start this.